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I'm sorry to hear about your struggles. [2007-10-03]
I don I hope you are talking to a counselor on a regular basis. If not, you should be. I know the right combination of medicines are very important, but I think counseling might be equally important. I hope you have a strong support group to lean on. If people you love don Be strong and keep your head up!
re:weight [2008-06-25]
Yeah, I would totally be interested in this with you. Can you email me on my personal email (listed above) and we can make a plan. Not sure where to start or what would be the best idea, etc. but we can make a plan together and get going. I am exhausted and my family is out of town right now so have been a bit out of sorts as far as schedule goes so sorry I took so long to get back to you. Let me know via email when you would be ready to get going and what plan you may have.
I am looking forward to it, the support will be wonderful.
I will wait to hear from you.
Thanks. Laurie Jean
Possibly bipolar [2007-10-14]
I have had a psychiatrist tell me I am bipolar and another one tell me I am not and that I just have dysthymia/severe depression with anxiety/panic disorder. I don
I weaned myself off of all my psych meds the last few months. I don BUT, I am 38 and I was taking 8 to 10 different meds for different things. I hada lumbarspine fusion and them later diagosed with fibromyalgia, cervical disk degeneration at all levels, 2 disks bulging, etc. This is not to mention my horrible sinus issues and being s/p 2 surgeries.
I do know that I cannot take an antidepressant alone as it does cause the cycles to come more rapid being bipolar. If I take antidepressants, I have to have a mood stabilizer on board too!!
I am sick of pouring all these meds in my body all the time.
Your welcome. [2007-10-03]
Glad to hear you have a loving family. I I hope you do check out that Otep website (if you haven They have a whole You are not alone section where you can ask for advice on anything, which I think is great. I try to get on there and give advice (and sometimes get advice) when I can. Sometimes it just helps to know someone else is going through the same thing you are! Feel free to email me if you ever want to. Take care.
Fascinating! [2007-09-29]
Here I am, it
I just read what you and ER-MT posted and it A few months ago I had a meltdown and just had to get away. I went into the woods for a good 2 hours and just sat and listened and watched pretty much nothing except for some birds.
I hate the thought of taking any medication because I have control over it 90% of the time...but that darned 10% of feeling out of control is a bummer when it does hit, and it I really hate the thought of any mental health issues being put in my medical record as well. I see a doctor maybe once every few years for a physical and only go if something is broken or needs suturing. I hate doctors--especially the ones up here in Maine. Itreated by an veterinarian.
I actually had to turn my phone off this week because I Sheand she
Thanks for the book recommendation. I'll have to check it out and see if there are any good tips for coping with it all.
Experience with Cymbalta? sm [2007-09-27]
My internist suggested a trial of Cymbalta as I am not myself lately, mostly because of back painwhich is a problem inthis profession. I cannot perform half of what I used to. I am at times very moody. I tried this just once and I felt awful, could not sleep, made me feel like a zombie. I have had to reject several other meds for different problems because I am highly allergic. I am afraid he's going to say that I'm just plain nuts. That's how I feel right now but I cannot tolerate the thought of putting this drug in my system. I do try healthy alternatives, PT, walking, vitamins, all that is good for me. He gave me 30 mg to be advanced to 60 mg. I have researched message boards on this and have seen very positive and very negative feedback. However, one does not know if drug reps input into these boards, i.e., promoting their own or degrading the competition. I feel this is a dangerous drug as I have a rapid heart problem as well. I would like to hear if anyone has any input on this, I could not believe how awful I felt just taking one dose. Thanks.
I remember a doctor once saying [2007-09-08]
that usually when a patient thinks they are depressed, they are.
With my depression I don't want to exist. I don't want to kill myself, I just wish I was never born. I want to escape the ugly side of the world. Fortunately my temptation is not to escape into alcohol or illicit drugs, but into sleep, or at least television or a book. I tend to stay up late at night though, dreading going to bed because then I'll have to get up and face another day. I have no direction, nothing interests me or excites me. I don't care to see people and certainly don't want to hear about all the terrible things happening in the world that I have no control over.
How are you feeling?
My own mental health issues. [2007-08-18]
Short background. I am 32 years old. I am married, have 2 kids ages 5 and 2 and work FT.
Is this a mental health issue when a person appears to be spaced out. What is happening is that I will have a conversation with someone and when the conversation is over and already started on the next one, my mind doesn’t really shut down and I will be still thinking about what was said in the previous conversation that I don’t hear what was said in the next. I don’t know if that makes sense or not. Or another example, I will be thinking of something like what I want to do, about a previous conversation I had and someone will call me and I will be so deep in thought I cannot hear the person calling. I do this daily. I have been bad about this all my life but when something is bothering me it is 100% worse. It always affected my schoolwork and it also affects my job and relationships. I try to control myself but I have failed. Mom thinks I am have epileptic seizures and needs to see a neurologist. I don’t think it is seizures.
Also, I think I must be suffering some kind of mental health issue where I will just be sitting and all of the sudden I will get so mad. No one has said or done anything to provoke it, but I will start thinking about something and get so mad, start rubbing my head and get the urge to kick something hard or toss something across the room or scream at the top of my lungs.
Lately, people say I perceive things wrong. Mom says she is worried about the safety of my kids because of this that I described and told me I needed to get some sort of help. I accused her of calling me unfit. She said no, she thinks there is a short circuit somewhere. Then I said oh so I am crazy, she said no your getting it all wrong. Right now I cannot speak to mom without getting into an argument and a huge meltdown on my part.
To tell the truth I have been worried too. 10 years ago, I was never this way. I have always been spacey but this anger is new. Use to if I had a bad run-in with someone, for example, I would think oh well tomorrow is another day, no big deal. Now, I will dwell on it and dwell on it until I just want to yank that persons hair out or kick them in the face of whatever. (I haven’t yet gotten physical with anyone yet). I don’t understand what has gotten into me. When my kids cross me when I am having one of these episodes, I have managed to just go to another room, count to 10 but there has been a few times I have screamed at them from the top of my lungs and then later think “oh crap” that was unnecessary. I secretly worry about my kids too.
I called my PCP and I have an appointment set up for Monday. I sure hope she can help. Maybe this is just a lack of self-discipline on my part. I have tried but just don’t know how to control it or make this horrible feeling I get inside me just stop. It is so hard for me to get anything done. I try to get myself to do house work, I manage to pick clothes up off the floor and into the hamper. Then, I start to feel tired and quit although, I am far from being finished with my housework. This is so unlike me. Used to I would get things done and ready to go have some fun. Not anymore.
Thank you. sm [2007-07-03]
I actually am an IC already. I have a unique situation, having to report to someone else.
I get frustrated because I do try to attend club meetings, etc., to try to meet people, but constantly have to cancel out due to either more work coming in or sometimes just getting really difficult work in the first place (the stuff others skip over on the system at a large hospital is often what comes to me).
This feels like a hamster wheel LOL! Not sure where to attack the problem from.
It's encouraging to hear that the generic meds are more affordable like that. Thank you.
I do think youin my face, I most certainly am feeling depressed.
Honestly, all things considered, I'd love to get out of MT because it just, um, doesn't do it for me.
Maybe I'll take a bubble bath tonight. Thank you for reminding me to be kind to myself!
you know, I HAVE thought about this! sm [2007-07-03]
I've looked at Dragon medical version and even contemplated charging it (gasp) on the credit card. I mean, charge it and keep my job or...
I'd love to hear input from any others who have gone this route. It's not a solution, but it's a temporary fix and way to keep a job until I can get something else lined up, as you mention.
The way I see it, I'd just listen to my usual dictation but redictate it into my computer. (rather than have my computer try to understand all these ESL docs)
Hmmm... free career counseling. Now that's interesting.
I agree, typing isn't all there is, and I'm so fed up. Maybe the universe is trying to get me out of this.
Thanks for your support :-0
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